REGRETS&FORGIVENESS

Spectrum 19 arrived and it has been the biggest disappointment of my whole online shopping experience. 90% of the illustrations inside were those I did not like, and 50% were that if half naked females, and 100% of the layouts were horrifying enough that even a layout/typography-dummy-like-me was dumbstruck. I confidently infer 90% of the people who edited the book were males. fucking horny males. I was really upset when I first flipped through its pages and progressively my soul left my body... Because i finally accepted that I wasted $45 on a book I didn't ever want to look at again. And I can't even return it because the shipping to Australia is $36... Sooooo I really want to sell it away but my mum told me to keep it. Why? So i don't ever make the same mistake like that again and I will look at the book everyday to remind me of that lol. Love my mum. The glass is always half full with her around.

Anyway 4 days after that horrible incident after which I stuffed spectrum 19 back into its box and never opened it again, I bought another book. Just 3 hours ago. But this time i looked at the inside of the book and fucking loved every page! Exactly the way it should be when you buy a fucking expensive book. It's a collection of artworks by one of my favorite illustrators, yuko shimizu!! It was sold for exactly the same price as spectrum 19 and that still makes me cringe at how the value of a book is subjective to a reader, because to me, spectrum 19 ain't worth shit. Not to say it is worth shit to everybody. Just me.

Anyhow I love love love this book that I just bought, have been waiting for the price to go down though from about a year ago when I first saw it. In the end, student discount was given PLUS! An extra 5% from this uncle who gave it to me as a special price with a cheeky grin that grossed me out but oh well, if it saves money? TAKE IT. So yay! I got the book for $36! It's still expensive but I love and respect the artist enough to agree this price and suppress a shiver when i got that grin, cause the quality artwork was worth it. And so I have thus forgiven myself for ever purchasing spectrum 19, and in general, purchasing a book that I had never seen the insides of.

A couple of pictures of the book are below! Yuko shimizu fan forever!