considering taking it slow

Well, i have thus far had the most excruciatingly exhausting 2 weeks of my life. You know what they say, the time when you suffered the most is time you were most happy. MY ASS. Whoever wrote that bullshit is some ancient masochist from god knows where. I mean i get that this is supposed to prepare us for the outside but seriously, my body can't take this amount of torture. I need a hug so bad its so humiliating. And these recent stomache pains are one of the worst i've had in my life too. My mum says its because of stress. Like duh! Its really annoying when your mind feels like punching something up and your body is like an 80 year old grandma aching all over and feeling so weak. )$*%(#&$%(#$&%(#!!!

Eating overflowing spoonfuls of bitter guard now. Hope it detoxifies all the shit from my body. This vegetable is a gift from the heavens, it tastes so good and is so good for your body~ Well well well better get back to work before i have to get my fourth mc this month, if i had so little money left, i have even lesser now... oh woe is meeeee~ my eye sight is really horrible right now, can't wait to get new specs!

But on to what has been bugging me lately. I really am considering staying another year in poly! Sure i won't know anyone but thats alright since i'm a loner to begin with anyway. Is it such a bad thing to retain a year? Sure the school fees are tough but I would be able to work this time and develop my portfolio. I really think i am not ready for the outside world yet. Well B and I have been joking about taking up journalism but I really don't mind and am even interested! Oh shit my eye sight is really scary right now. I cant even focus on objects at arm's length!! to think that four years have passed with me wearing this specs with not much change and in 2 freaking weeks i have double vision and that is times 2 since i am wearing specs already!! ARRGHHHH!!