Why does he always remind me the reason i hate him after making up after a long mental battles. I guess assholes cant change their spots even if, no I don't even think he wants to. The bastard. I hope he gets a girl   that gets him to shut up at least once in a while. or better yet, control that rude tongue of his. Words coming out of that mouth are so filled with sarcasm even his occasional days of sunshine cant make up for all of his bullshit. !8 years of my life with him and I can list all of his plus points. Hard-headedness, hard-headedness, hard-headedness, and occasionally bullshit. I should laugh at this combination if i want to live longer and not waste my time dissing him in my under-used brain. So in short, SCREW YOU.


Sigh. At least one brother is getting his act together. Cant be more proud of him than right now. Its really beautiful to see a guy mature his thinking. I hope this pays off though. If this should not turn out fruitful, I fear he will give up completely. If willing him to pass existed I would do it everyday till his exams are over.  Wonder how I can encourage him. Also, I fear my relaxing relationship with my other brother is making him sad. And it still stands, I adore my younger brother to the other. Bias, I know, but how can I help it? We're more like twins than anything. AND I prefer his temperament to the other dighead. 


Lately though, little things irritate me and I get hyper. TOO MUCH SUGAR! I want ta work at unique oh the sadness. I guess I have absolutely no luck for jobs in Singapore, some fortune telling of my fate on this island. You know, this is the first time I really want to work so bad, and of course this has something (albeit maybe a little bit) to do with my recent splurging... like a few hundred behind in my bank account... So much for saving up when school starts. Oh the irony~ 


OH YES! I'm addicted to 'unthinkable' by Alicia Keys lately. Awesome song, listen to it with the mv(to stop any misunderstanding of the context of the song by the way). That and 'niji' by Aqua Timez. Reliving my childhood anime days(if secondary school counts lol). Well, that concludes my last two colorful weeks. Oh that and my recent obsession on my crazy chef character design, don't think i'll finish it in time for the NEXT competition. Till next time.


Ciao!

Had one of the worst dreams/nightmares in my life. 


I dreamt my mother died.
It was horrible. And quiet. It was accepting and strangely peaceful. This was after my mum died? I think? My grandfather was there, albeit the one  haven't met before on my mum's side. I think my aunt was there as well? We were in a mansion of sorts, lots of cream and white deco. Not unlike something coming out of a version of heaven or Olympus. 


But if that is true than it means I died instead. Zzzzz, not a comforting thought.


All else I can remember is that I woke up crying. A lot. This feels just like the last time I dreamt I killed my brother zzz. Now that was the most horrible dream in my life. Fatigue is a really scary thing, perhaps I should turn in now. I hope good dreams await my entering the dream world. I won't comment on the recent polling events.


Ciao!

Already I can feel the stress of 2 modules, an upcoming audition, international competition, and a very late painting assignment. In addition to this sorry state of affairs, is my lax ability to handle my finance. The ratio of output to inout from the bank is startling. (in favor of output) I am struggling to restrain myself of excessive spending. I really do need to manage my time now and STOP BLOGGING. Then again, I have always been a creature of impulse and have never really fallen into step with uniformity, other than the uniformity of my own principles of course.

I drift in the tides of the society, always a part of it, and yet apart from it.

You Know...

I'm kinda sad. (Yes, I know. What an awful way of beginning a blog. You're probably reaching for the big red cross thinking " What the heeeeeeeeeell, as if i'm not bored with all the sad things in my life that I need to listen to more." Click*) And if you're still reading this to the end, wow. And you're thinking "I just got punked! Wasted 5 seconds of my life and counting."


Anyway, wanna know why i'm so sad? I'm sure after reading this whole paragraph you're expecting a really good explanation for all the long-windedness of this ridiculously long sentence that has yet to end. Laughlaughlaugh.


Its amazing how idiotic you can feel when you know this is not leading to anything productive, educational or minutely entertaining. Still reading? Smilez* You're addicted. And there is still the nagging feeling in the back of your head that says "you are wasting you're time", and yet at the same time you want to believe all your effort reading this nonsensical blog is actually worth it and not some probable prank of a bored person trying to test out a theory on the human psychology on the human-attention-span relationship to selective topics of interest.  If you have read every single word to this one right here, then my hypothesis may prove to be true~ (not really sure what it is though, perhaps i'll find a way to express my theory in words and entertain everyone again.) Until next time~


Ciao!