It is month2 of FYP and morale is tangibly lower than from the start. I, for one, have completed roughly less than 5% and that speed is probably not going to increase any time soon. Unconsciously, my brain has developed new fun ways of making me forget the stress temporarily. I have started going getting fit crazy, a combination of swimming, gymming, and yoga, at least once a week from the standard once a month 'training'. and crazily after these physically straining workout, we do work again till the wee hours of the morning! skyping and all, but its kinda silly cause brenda and i dont even talk cause we dont want to be noisy. theres just blank poker faces even though we type HAHAHA!! or LOL. But it causes huge bouts of hunger where me and B splurge on food and the 'exercise' is more or less negligible. I feel trapped in this vicious cycle, like the milk and cereal vicious cycle. It's annoying and worrying, I'm scared I won't be able to complete whatever shit I have to do for interim 2...
Oh yes, there is this sudden urge to attend kickboxing classes but dammit those classes are insanely expensive!! But ooooo i want to hit something and really really am considering going back to wu shu again... Grrr I want a rich husband who also does housework lol.
Other than that are the scary dreams-that-come-true thing that's been going on. When ever I dream of water, whether its a puddle or tsunami or a shower, some natural disaster that involves water always appears on the news the next day or night on the news!! It's freaky thing but also interesting, lets see how many times more a similar hint will happen~ I have a theory! Maybe it's my sixth sense heightening cause of the world's gonna end thing going on lol, OR it's that I've inherited my mum's kind-of-fortune-telling ability. Uh huh my mum is really sensitive to stuff that will happen whether is in the family or on the news, it's difficult to explain and I'm lazy to, sooooooooo....
You know the fridge in my house is one of the biggest distracters for me. Walking to it in the middle of work is common, even if I don't take anything from it. The walk to the fridge then opening and closing the door is like a break and calming something to my tired eyeballs lol. If one day they design a machine or drug that recharges your eyeballs in minutes oh that will be a best seller for decades till they design something that recharges the whole body~
Allora~ apart from design, I've a sudden interest in learning social sciences. Just realized in the shower one day that other than drawing, I've always observed people. Yea I do interact with people but I generally like to stand at a not awkward distance and just observe. But I do not want to become like Terence. Long story of disappointment and hate~ of course I'm not saying Everyone from HSS is like him but still~ sigh thinking about the future when I can't even cope with the present. And those hormones of mine, coupled with stress, is making me cranky on a number of things~
Allora, shall sleep now and try to wake early to cram some work, ciao!
Ps: for those who do not know what the milk and cereal vicious cycle is...
It's a situation where a particular box of cereal uses about 5/6 of a big bottle of milk. But the left over milk is quite a lot too and because non of my family members particularly like drinking milk, unless with cereal, the only option is to buy another box of cereal. But then there is it enough milk!! So you buy another bottle of milk which is a big bottle because its cheaper and there is left over milk after finishing the cereal... So you see the cycle repeats. And that is the milk and cereal vicious cycle.
